Read the signs

The signs can only be seen if you look
If you know how to read
It's a cycle
You can read these things but only if you want to see
Most people choose not to see
It's too much work
The ironic thing is that people value work
Just not the kind that means anything in the end
I don't want to fall
This is why I'm learning to read
This is another art that must be learned through practice
Slipping
There's signs of slippage long before the fall
Look for slips
The slips themselves are not the fall
The slips are the signs
The slips are telling you to turn
To grab on to something turning
To charge back
To higher ground
You don't have to fall
But to not fall you have to read the signs

Like the beach

My creation is like the beach
My work is for today
Only my insides get to keep rewards
my outsides can become beautiful
this can be swept away with the tide
sometimes it's high
sometimes it's low
remember the formation is constantly on the move
I can create beauty for a day
the tide takes it away and recreates it's own
all I have are the lessons
the muscle memory
work the muscle of this memory
I can become incredible
I can also die
respect
observe
play
practice
build
have fun

Adhere to the signs

The signs are good
The phone's not ringing for the wrong reasons
This is a good sign
I'm entering back into the world of the living
Through the wall of pain
This is the only way
This direction is a good sign
I've found a key to the lock of my passion
I've waited for this with no luck
The signs are changing right now
The girl is smiling
This is allways good
Look for the signs
Pay attention
Adhere

Where am I going?

Sometimes the stars do align
Sometimes you hit a sweet spot
Sometimes all in the world is right
Sometimes, for a brief moment, you can be king
Tonight was this moment for me.
I thought I was going to drive off a cliff
But I turned the crowd around instantly and had them eating out of my hand
Some things you can't fake
The guy before me knows this too well
The belly laughs were not the phantom laughs sometimes heard by open mic-ers
I've heard those before and tonight they were real.
As long as you're not counting the mean looking lady in the corner of the room
She didn't crack a smile
She abhorred me, I could sense this
I have this affect on certain types of people
I have a quality in me that can turn a completely, seemingly composed man into a basket case
The teacher in high school went home in tears
I can lead
But like Matt Dillon's older bother in Rumblefish told him
"If you're going to lead you need some place to go."
Where am I going?  This has become my question.

Choose something to beleive in

I thought the pill would work
No, scratch that
I believed in the pill
I believed it to the core of my being
I knew for a fact that the pill would work
So I took it
And guess what?
It did
It worked like a fucking charm
I got high
I got connected
I became part of the orderly direction of the universe
In fact the universe began to rearrange itself for me

One day I stopped taking the pill
I learned that it wasn't really working
That's what someone told me and I believed them
Fuck that pill
The universe took a look at me and said, "Fuck you!"
I was fucked
Everything went to shit

I wanted my universe back
I took the pill
I didn't believe it would work
And it didn't
The universe was still fucking me
I wasn't on the beam

Brainwashing group think bullshit worked for me
Then I didn't want to be a zombie
This is my thinking
I wanted to be me
The pill stopped working

Choose something to believe in
Put it in a pill
Swallow the pill

I want more unattainable

I saw a glimpse today
It was beautiful
So much so it hurt a little
But in a good way
Instantly I need more
It made me feel good
Being in the dark for long times has that effect
Just a glimpse can become intoxicating
I want more
I want to take more
I want to make more
I want to give more
I want to live in more
I want to bath in more
My personality is just this way
I surprise people
When will I surprise myself?
I want more than a glimpse
I want the whole unattainable thing

Strange darkness

Strange change
Strange stillness
Strange feel
Sounds swim in my mind
Water flows through the being
The tower is crumbling

Both of the understandings are hidden

Hidden behind words

Hidden behind acts

Hidden behind signs

Hidden within the world

Hiddin both within and without

I used to know and it was good

Then I learned more and no longer knew

Then it became strange

Just go with it

It's just the drug

It's just the unknowable truth