Fade the blue

Something guiding something true
Going riding with someone new
I'm not over or met with wonder
Until the sober and awe of thunder
Touch the slow and pain of towns
To make me go where only frowns
Take the tolls and tears of life
That load the coals and pull the strife
So gentle is the sound of moving
That makes this the one I'm proving
I hold to one to inner guides
And then I run to see the tides
When I'm lost to you I'll turn
I know the cost is what I learn
Take me through the cycles long
And fade the blue to get the strong

Two third

I've seen more than what need to know
To cut the core of what's got to go
Everytime I see another trick to trade
There's nothing free from you it's paid
I write the song from a feel inside
I right the wrong with a safe confide
Don't talk your game cause I'm no longer new
All talk's the same you've got a permanent flue
Tonight is going to break the unspoken word
A quarter heart to take and place two third.

Religous control

It starts easy.  It seems normal.  That's how it gets you. It seems logical when your mind is magical.  But when the magical turns rational then the once true turns childish.

But the magic is still there.  It's hidden between the lines.  Read between the lines.  

Obsession can be good

My obsession can be good when it's properly harnessed. I just finished my screenplay!!!!!!!!!!

I've been working on it for the last few months but I've become obsessed in the last few days. I somehow was able to see a light at the end of the tunnel and I glued myself to the computer for days on end until...I'm done.

I think it's kind of good too.

Life is love if you want it

As messed up as things can get in this world there's twice as much beauty. What do I look for? What and whom do I seek? I'm seeing beauty in a life that previously had none. There's good if you want it. There's signs if you want them. There's laws at work. A system in place. A divine order. All you have to do is plug in. The magic is universal. Pain is universal. But so is love if we want it to be. You can see love in the worst. It's there if you want to see it. And if you do see it and you focus on it it gets bigger. It gets so big that what you thought was once bad is now love.

People are love. Life is love. But only if you want it to be.

Is it odd? Or is it God?

Just when everything seems pointless and random something that seems no less that a hand from the heavens above happens. With a billion possibilities even the unlucky ones seem to have a moment of grace in this life. This is my exerience. I've been living in what feels like he'll for I don't know how long. One day I look up and I see one of life's coincidences.

One that turned me. Everything looks different. I've got new reading glasses and what I'm reading spells change. Change for the better.

Surrender

So much fighting. So much stubborness. So deep runs the need to be right. And with this need to be right comes the need for you to be wrong. I'm at war! The problem is when you're at war there are no real winners. Even if you win you're fucked because war in itself is fucked.

I'm internally at war. I fight with the world but really I fight with myself. Who is this self that I fight with? Evil Duke? Is it evil Duke vs Super Duke? Where's the real Duke? I'm searching for him. This is who I want to surrender to. The peaceful one. The wise one.